not a good day though...

another teary day but life has to go on.. patah tumbuh hilang berganti.. i have lost a good friend (at least i thought so) but i believed it happened for a good reason..

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us"

i'm not going to look at the closed door anymore... good friend should stand side by side.. but if he can just let go of the friendship, then he is not worth of being my friend anymore.. not going to cry any tears on the broken relation again.. ever... i'll be stronger than before... ;))

Mean- Taylor Swift lyrics

Rossa - Tak 'kan Berpaling Dari-Mu

Zikir-Penenang Hati_(360p).mp4

Munajat Keampunan Zikir Doa Taubatan Nasuha

Don't Be Sad Beautiful Nasheed- Heart Touching

Lonely..

feel so lonely.. so so lonely.. but i remembered my best friend once told me ~ cry and ask for Allah guidance... so many things happened and i don't know how to handle it anymore... but only one thing i surely know how to do... to pray and ask Allah for forgiveness and guidance.. may Allah shows me the answers to my prayers and the right path to follow..

ALLAH is enough for me....

tensiiiioooonnnnn...

i am so tensed and stressed... hmmmm....

LeTting Go.... (2)

LetTiNg go....

Hmmmm..

Miss them all.. my parents, siblings, nephew, nieces and my closest friends....

Kuih Bakar...

i baked my favourite kuih today.. yummy... used to buy in last time when i was in malaysia.. but now i made it on my own.. more yummier coz i used original pandan leaves juice and thick coconut milk... hmm.. today is the 5th attempt... tq for the recipe in my resepi....

• Bahan-bahan
• 1 cup gula
• 1 cup jus pandan (atau air + pandan essence)
• 2 cup tepung gandum
• 2 1/4 cup santan (atau 1 can santan-450ml )
• 2 tbs butter
• 3 biji telur
• 1/2 tsp garam
• colour hijau
• bijan
• Cara-cara
• campurkan semua bahan. blend sampai sebati.
• masukkan 2 tbs minyak dlm loyang .
• panaskan loyang dlm oven. bila minyak dah panas, masukkan mixture tadi kuih, taburkan bijan. bakar @180 sampai brown atau garing

i am mad.....

seriously i'm mad... grrrrrr.... all this while i respected him as a good friend.. but today he crossed the line... he made me look fool.. that's it... i really hate him now.. i deleted all the numbers and messages.. he/she who never know how to respect a friendship is not worth of becoming a friend... so sorry.. i have given you chances and respected you all this while and now i had enough... not going to waste my time on you anymore... off you go from my life...

Diana Ross - Do You Know

stressed :((

today i feel so stressed.. its hard to do post graduate course.. sometimes i wish i had chosen studying in US.. probably will be much easier and fun... there are times which i had regretted my decision.. but its too late... sigh... i know its not good to think over the past and i also know that i have to live the life and the path that i have chosen... i know i will and i have to but its sometimes so hard... :((

My tears almost fell down today... but i hold it back... too many things in my head and i can't think straight.. so many fears and tense.. i really hope that i can sail it through... i wish that someday when i look back at my life, i will able to smile and say "i did it"...

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

I am totaLLy PiSSed off

huhuhuhu... i am pissed off with few people.. but unfortunately i can't say it straight to their faces.. how i wish i can but i know that is not the right thing to do... so, the best is to keep it to myself.. but it hurts a lot to think about it and not sharing it with anyone... so, i'm doing the right thing by sharing it in my blog.. who cares.. no one read my blog and i do not have any followers.. those who i damn pissed off will never knew the existence of my blog.. what more reading it... hehehe... and if they did, they never knew its them... clever huh... lalalalala....

Irritated...

eeee.. i'm really irritated by someone.. i know its not good and its wrong but i can't help it.. i just can't help myself not to feel like that... mmg org tu tak ada dosa tp perbuatan n kata2 tu nampak cam bagus2 jer... lemah tulll... gossshhhh.. what should i do??? i need to face this before it get worst... aduyaiii... feel like talking to someone right now but there is no one existed online... make me feel worst.. isk3...

Ya Allah.. camner nie.. the feeling kind of growing up everyday.. try to stop it but its hard.... feel like doing a great sin to have this kind of feeling... huhuhu.... Ya Allah, jauhkan la rasa ini.. pleaseeee.... Astaghfirullah hal azim....

too much..

life can be extremely hard.. and sometimes too much to be swallowed... errkk... fair and justice; such a beautiful words but it just a dream which never comes true =((

Spider - Kita Satu (Lirik)